I think my soul my be a bit atrophied from a lack of... I don't know. Happy? Stimulation? Use? Something. But I know that I used to be happier than I am now. I used to be better than I am now. And I know that the things that feed my soul, that make me happy (like, reallytruly happy), seem to be less and less of a presence in my life lately. And I know that the effect is not good. Not good at all.
But life is life, and it twists and turns and changes, and we must twist and turn and change with it. And the beauty of that is that if you don't like the way it twists, you can twist the other way.
But the problem with that is sometimes you can't twist the other way right away. There are responsibilities. There are bills. There are things that must be taken care of. There is life.
And right now, I think I'm kind of stuck in that place; that place where I know some things need to change, but right now, I can't do much about it.
Except hold on, and hope my soul can hold on, too. For just a little bit longer.
tell it to me tuesday