BUT! I can also continue to run! In limited amounts. If I make other things (see above photos) a bigger part of my life. I am FINE with that! I can still run sometimes. Like maybe a few times a week. And maybe I can go have fun at some races here and there. I can learn to do that. Have fun, I mean. And those cute little girls with their outfits and ponytails can go right on ahead and speed past me. Let's face it, they surely don't have a bike that's half as awesome as mine (Did you see it's black and khaki and gray! With flowers!) OR super cool hemp hiking shoes (which is what happens when Hubby goes shoe shopping). And I know I get far more joy from the little things (like chocolate - do they even eat chocolate? Or running). I've had my heyday. I've done some things. Let someone else have a turn. (Right? That's right, isn't it? It sounds good. I'm going to keep repeating it until I totally believe it.)
AND! Of more immediate importance..... If I may quote Doctor: "If you feel okay, and you want to run on Saturday, that would be okay." Big Race, here I come! No, I can't see that I'll come anywhere near the time I was training/planning/hoping to run. It's not gonna be a PR day. But I'm running. There's the victory for me, right there.
Overall, I feel pretty good. Even with my stiff, arthritic knee. Even making some major changes. I'm moving on, in lots of ways.